“Behold, children are a gift of the Lord; the fruit of the womb is a reward.” Psalm 127:3
I’ve decided to stop being a crybaby about cancelling our Hawaii trip. I have already been given a tremendous gift. One that I prayed for and dreamed about for many months. God is using my body to create human life. I need to take care of the gift I’ve been given. If that means waiting to go to Hawaii, so be it. Some people never have an opportunity to go to Hawaii and others never have an opportunity to have a baby. Am I disappointed? Of course, I am I’m human. When I look at the big picture, I would much rather have a baby (a healthy one) than go to Hawaii and risk it all.
Sometimes I forget that I’m not normal. I forget that being pregnant is a risk for me. A big risk. I have come so far and felt amazing for so long, that it’s hard to slow down and remember to take care of my body. This is a good reminder. Mother’s make all kinds of sacrifices. I have sacrificed Dr. Pepper and Hawaii and I’m sure there will be countless other sacrifices along the way. Would I have it any other way? No.
I can’t even describe how amazing it was yesterday to see our little baby during the ultrasound. Ah-ma-zing. We are so blessed. Seeing the baby’s heart beat was the best part of my day. Our baby is strong and healthy I couldn’t ask for anything more. Not even a trip to Hawaii.
P.S. Every once in a while my husband does something extremely brilliant. When he booked our tickets to Hawaii he bought insurance for the first time ever. So, we get our money back. That makes it a lot less painful. I just hope the Mallory’s will plan a future trip with us to celebrate our eleventh anniversaries.
